I just hate myself!!!

It is the first time that I have been this mad...
I am not mad at anybody but myself coz I can't be able to control them

It is not my fault that they do not follow the rules and they have to pay
My job is only to do as I was told

Now it seems it is all my fault and no one is there to lend me their back

I am not mad at them but just myself...

I Don't want to fall in love

I never knew love till I met him. I got lost thinking about him. I threw away real life just for him. I did everything for him but he did'nt even notice how I feel. He came to me whenever he and the one he love are fighting and I just pretend it's ok though itr really hurts a lot.....

The endless dream of a paradise disappear as the sun sets to the west. I am now living in a graveyard full of corpse lying on the ground. I want to leave this place but it is the only way I can be with you so the hell I care...

I can't go to sleep coz I always think of him. i wish I won't have to suffer this much...